Forever

What does the beginning of forever feel like?

How do you know that something good will last into the endless twists and turns, the eagle dance of fate and time plunging forever from the sky?

Its carved into trees, abbreviated, grown over. Your initials next to mine, smiling back at the sun against decades of its rays.

How can I even hope for it?

What does forever feel like?

The beginning of love, those seeds, pressed into the folds of you, pinched in and watered, nurtured. Love is painful. Those seeds expand inside me, digging deeper, stretching towards the outside until I am encased in its branches. The tree is growing out towards the sunshine of our love.

Forever starts painfully slow. Those tree rings are growing around us, so fast at first, our sapling clenches our hearts together, molding them. I can't tell one from the other now.

Apart from you feels like forever. I am an unfinished puzzle aching to be solved. Pieces of you wrap around me and meld with me and when I breathe your breathe I could be thinking your thoughts and you could be thinking mine.

Its been forever since I had a sign that two souls could be made for each other. I flash back to all those wrong choices, those people I jammed myself against, those ill fitted keys that ground and sliced up my insides until I had no tears left, only blood.

It felt like forever, I was walking through hell and projecting love onto those who didn't love me, not as much as you, or maybe even at all. Remembering that is my hell, and you make me remember, because you fold me up into blankets and kisses and bites and heaven. I never knew good, so there was no way of regretting the bad. And yet all that bad lets me appreciate just how good you are.

I just want you into forever. I would take the heart out of my chest and let you keep it safe. We could protect each other's hearts in our locked rib cages. I would never let anyone touch it or look at it, hidden safe inside the tight sheets of my skin. Forever until we step down together into the unknown and that unknown will have to take us together.

Show me what forever feels like. I can make it there if you're holding my hand.